Right right so what's happening in my life ? The most significant one would be me getting married in a few months I guess ? Aaahahahah such a huge contrast from the me 10 years ago, being salty and shit. However no kids, won't say I am not disappointed but I sure am looking forward to more adventures the two of us are going to share in the future. Will we live long ? Nobody knows, at this point we are really just going wherever seems and feels good for us. Currently still in the same old country but different state, moved to a bigger city, stuck at the same shit job ... OH RIGHT I GOT A JOB - As a customer service but that's for the next paragraph. People here are tense and always in a hurry, most of us are not friends but rather just associates and I'm fine with that. I like to keep my friend circle small and nice, pointless having too many friends and none of them who really knows you amirite ? 

I changed cars 4 times since then - Persona, GT86, MX5 and now to a small sized passenger car, Axia ... and I got a house ! Just shy of 1k sqft but hey its roof over my head aye ? Enjoyed the MX5 the most, convertible, small cc engine that's peppy and fuel economical, its Mazda, everything is cheap to maintain ... Alas I couldn't keep it due to financial reasons (because my silly ass got the house duhhhh and my wages ain't going higher !) and had to change to a more economical car. All is well, the Axia is fun in the sense that its so small it turns so well, raises a lot of eyebrow and definitely not as gutless as it seems. I love it (still want my MX5 back tho). Participated in a few motorsports events - drifting, gymkhana, (illegal) touge and many other stuff. Got to know a lot of cool people, some assholes and legends only seen or heard from news. This is the only part of me that hasn't changed really, I still love speed but now its more towards the corners. 

Ahh yes I believe I mentioned somewhere that I never got why people have stress ? Jokes on me I now have anxiety disorder, depression and I believe something that never got found out - ADHD. I am now one with stress, in fact I am made of stress, moulded by stress. I never seen relieve before I even made it out of stress (bruv, dafuq ?). Jokes aside, I believe many things made me what I am today.

1) Genetics - My asshole of a father is definitely mental issue stricken and my mother never knew (or rather she knew but decided to stick with him because engineer, ugh.). That motherless egocentric twat sure passed on some pretty sweet stuff to me, namely Thalassemia carrier, anxiety disorder, some cholesterol disorders, history of stroke, high blood, alcoholism and etc. Though the thing confirmed thus far is only anxiety disorder and cholesterol issues (alcoholism was an issue but I cut it quite some time ago).

2) Family - People always think I had a good upbringing, a good and easy life. Aaaaahahaahahhah no. I've been so pressured since young because I am the only child. All the unnecessary love, pampering, nagging and most importantly ... Have they ever thought how are they going to live after retirement ? Money is an issue, a big one. Though the mental torture was more critical than I thought.

3) Money - HOLY SHIT MONEHHHH. Yes I need more money to pay for my housing loan, lifestyle and hopefully a new toy car iykwim.

So I started a job in a prominent local company, public listed and all. Truth is, my family is able to survive thanks to it and I managed this far also thanks to it. Yet its a kind of love hate relationship because of how corporate and capitalism works. That said, I've been working here for 9 years. Perhaps I need to start looking elsewhere ? Life is getting pretty dull here and management ... well management is always good at fucking things up anyways. I have a theory that most company management are elected just as a means to do relation building with other companies or perhaps the government, the candidates just seem so ... impotent (sorry I mean important). 9 years and I am still not a general manager of sorts, in fact I got a downgrade recently because of how my superior couldn't work well. Why is this my problem ? God knows why, I guess people in general don't want to improve, they just want to feel good about the environment and themselves without knowing why they are stressed or where is the source of their problems. Any time someone makes a complain or legit feedback - OH YOU'RE NOT TEAM ORIENTED. Lo and behold, you get sent to Mordor. Right so I started out as customer service, got really pissed at how incompetent our technical department was and decided to transfer out to another branch's tech. Went there, boss was shit, the boss's boss was shit and they decided that "Hey its not us that is shit, you're shit." and now I am back to square one with the company repeating its mistake every damn fucking year. Getting pretty tired of this shit, they know that. Everyone knows it, yet no one is brave enough to make a difference. Pathetic. 

Welp I've typed a lot, probably leave some for the future. TLDR; I've changed (a bit) but you are all still bitches. Fuck you and see you all soon. 

P/S : I got a dog, Fluff and a cat, Pudding. They are precious.