Wednesday, July 30, 2008
After tuition , i stood outside of my teacher's house at glanced at the sky . I see stars...Many of them but some i can only see vividly ... I recalled somebody once said to me that : ''Every star represents hope for this world.Even if the last star has burnt out,there'd still be the Sun.'' That was long ago ... I finally know what he/she meant.But the question still lurks in my mind.Am i the only one without hopes?Am i the only one without any clue where am i?Am i the only one.Still feel sadness,suffering in this world?I looked down on the ground i was stepping on and rose my head up to look at the sky again ... I felt lonely ... helpless ... It was as if i'm a stray puppy finding it's way back home.I recalled all the happy moments in the past that were once so sweet ... had now became a misery for me as i yearn for a happy life ... If a star represents hope ... then mine should be the dimmest one ... or maybe it's just a false hope , a passing by airplane ...
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I reached home , sat down at the dining table alone ... The warm and soft rice went down my throat as i swallowed it ... But somehow a chill grew from within my heart ... I feel cold , my vision was blur.I rubbed my hands against each other and continued my dinner.It was the dinner of loneliness where i feast on coldness , sadness and memories ... I tasted the rice in my mouth , it's sweet ... but gone as i kept on chewing on it ...
Happiness with a fraud smile , Sadness with tears dried up , Angriness that dwells within , Love that has vanished into thin air , Hope that diminished , Hatred kept silently , Jealousy tainted on the heart ... That's me ... and i know i'm alive ...
Its all ... just a dream . 8:57:00 PM
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
And thus , the sky will be dyed scarlet.
I will just forge ahead when it comes again , giving it my best.
The 'people' that pass by me and the 'things' that were lost.
will one day become a forgotten memory of the past.
My strengh pulsating with vigorand my 'weakness' flickering evanescent ,
will both meet the same fate after all.
These ordinary days , the crimson raze is melted away.
The sun appears above the reddened world.
It flutters in the wind , and the lines are drawn back.
The flowing tips of my hair pierce through the enemy.
The slashed feelings , the pervasive dreams.
I will just carry out my mission to the end with my very own hands.
Yet another light is snuffed out.
Gently somewhere , it disappeared.
It is th reality you see , unchanged day after day.
However , i definately feel it
your warmth , your pulse.
This can also be called the truth.
And thus it turns crimson , the rust-coloured dust is scattered about.
It's starting now , against the backdrop of the setting sun.
Why is it that i feel confused
and hesitation in my rapidly beating heart?
This pain that erupts in pain
must be suppressed at once
The soaked and scorched clouds in the sky.
Burn the wishes hidden within to a crisp.
Tears well up in my hesitant eyes.
But , they will be turned into strengh tomorrow.
I offer my everything , upon this land which i have descended.
With a slash of my luminous blade , i shall bisect the darkness.
The light deep within my heart will continue to twinkle
until i finish my mission , giving it my best
Its all ... just a dream . 9:36:00 PM
Monday, July 28, 2008
I wish my life is a fairy tale or maybe fictional stories that euu find in movies , animes , comics etc ... There's always a happy ending around the corner and the characters in them live happy ever after while bad guys get their punishment . Perhaps it is better to live in stories ... since the endings ... are always sweet ...
Its all ... just a dream . 8:49:00 PM
The warmth that i've felt from her hands ... is no longer there ...
Tomorrow is going to be the class chemistry project presentation (actually it started today but tomorrow is our group's turn).I went to Eric's house to finish the presentation and port folio for the blasted project ... Which took us about 5 hours (mostly done by Eric) Me and Pin Han took turns to key in informations found in our Chemistry text book.While resting i meddled with the cube ... 1 min 55 seconds ... Man , that was slow ... Around 6 our port folio and presentation stuff were done and we took a look at the slide show ... Yeah ... our group is going to pawn other group's arse . Can't wait till tomorrow =X
Its all ... just a dream . 8:41:00 PM
Friday, July 25, 2008
Eh euu guys...Nothing to do ar ? Why split the science classes into 2 groups ?! And euu all these so called ''friends'' actually spent 5 years with us ... I guess there are no ''true'' friends huh ... ?
Can anybody spare me a tissue? I think my nose is bleeding xDDD SHAKUGAN NO SHANA ROCKS MY SOCKS!!~~~~~~~~
Its all ... just a dream . 3:49:00 PM
As mentioned in the title . It's LOVE and MEMORIES . I've missed so many things just because of one miserable girl... Am i getting dumb...?
Its all ... just a dream . 3:45:00 PM
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
Day dreamin.... LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA~~~~ (-o-) I dreamt about the past and future!Past : the time when 'she' tried to rest her head on my shoulder... *kok* Ok that was painful @@'' ; the time when we were having marching training *stares at her* *marched out of the team* Future : ? HaHa... it's unknown...
Sorry for not updating my blog for sometime since i see nobody rushing me to it =X .Anyway in yesterday's assembly.It was just like any normal day.We sang Negaraku until when we heard a loud crash on the floor.We saw one of the teacher fell onto the floor flat.St.John rushed to the scene and aid the teacher.It seems like she was going on a harsh diet.She looked so skinny and pale.Anyway...assembly continued!!~~~T.T another hour of torture to my beloved legs...
In this week nothing particular happened...Zzzz that's all folks
Its all ... just a dream . 3:57:00 PM
Saturday, July 19, 2008
This anime is Shakugan No Shana ( i guess most singaporeans know it ._. ) Shana is cute isn't she?xD
Its all ... just a dream . 9:27:00 AM
Thursday, July 10, 2008
I'm starting to get upset with this life now...It's painful , boring and sure is tough...Everybody seems to be against me.My family , friends , teachers and maybe even God is abandoning me...Sometimes i wonder ''Why am i the only one suffering all these? Why is everybody around me having a normal and happy life while i live a sad and tough one?'' I play games a lot.Ya i admit that i'm sorta stick to the game all the time but that's just to forget sad and unhappy things...My parents and even my grandma always said that i can't earn from games...study more...They like to nag and scold me everyday...I wonder if i am even related to them in the first place.They don't know how i feel.They will never understand the pain.All they know is brag : ''We know everything'' My foot.
Another thing is what i am going to study in the future.Where and when.They keep bothering me about it and even lecture me for not making decisions soon enough...I've already lost my purpose to live in life.So why bother?I don't even know why i'm alive.What for and for what cause...I'm literally a useless person...Everything i do or think is always wrong.I can't think straight.I want to let the burden in the past down but i can't.......Why am i such a fool?
I don't think the future would be anywhere better than now...I hope i die before my dark future...So i won't have to suffer so much...
Its all ... just a dream . 9:04:00 PM
Monday, July 7, 2008
As mentioned the secondary 2 guy who met a mishap few days ago caused by a form 4 fella...Our head mistress announced during assembly that IF he is found guilty.He would be charged RM10,000 and imprisoned for 2 years on the row (RM10,000 is about $4184.10) AND if he is only charged for riding a motorcycle without license , he will be sent to the rehab centre.
It takes only RM10,000 and 2 years of imprisonment for that illegal rider but for the secondary 2 guy , he paid the price...with his LIFE.That is , can't be recovered forever...Is there no justice in Malaysia?THAT LITTLE FOR A LIFE?The victim's parents lost their child.The victim's friend lost a buddy.The school lost a good student.One more person died in this world...Do euu call that ''justice''? I would put it as pure injust
Its all ... just a dream . 9:33:00 PM
Saturday, July 5, 2008
Hey~~~Long time never post something in my blog.So...Let's start from exams?Zzzz exam is around the corner and i'm still mapling...Can't seem to focus on studying anymore...T.T~~~
Its all ... just a dream . 2:54:00 PM
Is life that fragile...?Just a single hit from a motorcycle and he's gone...May euu Rest In Peace...
To : The secondary two junior in my school
Its all ... just a dream . 2:52:00 PM
